I was driving when dad called
"Where are you? Are you ok? There's an accident near our area.
I thought it was you. Drive carefully."
You know dad, considering I won't be by his side anymore,
i wish it was me.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
I lost the meaning of hurt
"It doesn't matter anymore if you say you love me."
crushed into pieces
my world came crashing down
this heart, felt like it was stabbed a million times
"You're hurting me more this way."
tell me what i can do boy?
drag it longer? it wouldn't work would it?
this decision, so hard to make
it hurts me more seeing you like this
i don't have a choice do i?
Baby, this is the moment i needed you the most
i'm hoping for your name to appear in my inbox
but, i know it's impossible
coz you said, once i leave, there's no turning back
i'm sorry
sorry's not enough
but baby, i'm truly sorry
right, nadz, no turning back
pick yourself up
bleagh, let's pop in pills
fuck
i keep drafting out a msg for you then i have it deleted
now where's courage?
hey you, have you seen courage?
fuck life
crushed into pieces
my world came crashing down
this heart, felt like it was stabbed a million times
"You're hurting me more this way."
tell me what i can do boy?
drag it longer? it wouldn't work would it?
this decision, so hard to make
it hurts me more seeing you like this
i don't have a choice do i?
Baby, this is the moment i needed you the most
i'm hoping for your name to appear in my inbox
but, i know it's impossible
coz you said, once i leave, there's no turning back
i'm sorry
sorry's not enough
but baby, i'm truly sorry
right, nadz, no turning back
pick yourself up
bleagh, let's pop in pills
fuck
i keep drafting out a msg for you then i have it deleted
now where's courage?
hey you, have you seen courage?
fuck life
I'M DESPERATE FOR YOUR VOICE
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Common sense is not so common
Tell me what to do baby
coz i'm left hanging
should i go?
or
should i stay?
i need you
but, i'm tired
can i give up baby?
i think i should
we both know that's the best
Saturday, June 27, 2009
12 hours a day
Hasta-la-vista!
Megan Fox made my day today, ya..the normal bla bla bla
"Megan Fox's hot!" like everyone fell for her
so i should say, Transformers rocks..literally like even without Megan
gig-ed in the noon at some ulu place in Kallang
zomg! the place is so effing ulu and right, the gig sucks balls
the worse gig ever i should say, (checklist: time wasted)
but for that cousin of mine, anything for you boy
i don't recall saying this in my 18 years of living but
fuck, this would be the day i'd say my cousin's damn hot!
then again, you grew up together with him so you know all his flaws
and that turned you off in an instant :) haha!
dinner-ed at Newton and yes, i foresee myself gaining a few more kgs
shitty much
and so, we walked to Orchard all the way to Somerset's skate park to meet the skater boy; Ivan
teehee :) and yes, Romi talked shits about his teenage years when he was the king of skate board
this part, just say "whatever!" haha
"psssssst, sya! the sheesha boy!" ;)
sad, no pics today, it's with Romi and i doubt he'll send me :)
Megan Fox made my day today, ya..the normal bla bla bla
"Megan Fox's hot!" like everyone fell for her
so i should say, Transformers rocks..literally like even without Megan
gig-ed in the noon at some ulu place in Kallang
zomg! the place is so effing ulu and right, the gig sucks balls
the worse gig ever i should say, (checklist: time wasted)
but for that cousin of mine, anything for you boy
i don't recall saying this in my 18 years of living but
fuck, this would be the day i'd say my cousin's damn hot!
then again, you grew up together with him so you know all his flaws
and that turned you off in an instant :) haha!
dinner-ed at Newton and yes, i foresee myself gaining a few more kgs
shitty much
and so, we walked to Orchard all the way to Somerset's skate park to meet the skater boy; Ivan
teehee :) and yes, Romi talked shits about his teenage years when he was the king of skate board
this part, just say "whatever!" haha
"psssssst, sya! the sheesha boy!" ;)
sad, no pics today, it's with Romi and i doubt he'll send me :)
Friday, June 26, 2009
Just a digit
Psssst, i've got a secret to share
i weigh 5 kg!
a big smiley face :)
with a BIG ZERO behind
dang!
i should just starve to death
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Not one fairytale
Can't you see, they're trying to tell me how to feel?
this love i'm having is so difficult but it's all so real
a thing to declare; i'm attached
how now brown cow?
i didn't put it into much thinking
now again, i've hurt my baby
sorry doesn't mean a thing now and yes i know
i'm not a princess
but i still wish for a happy ending
If i say i love you
it doesn't matter coz i'm not with you
if i say i miss you
you'd just say so what
but baby, i really do mean every single thing
You'll slowly walk out on me i know
i hate how much i love you
but i just can't let you go
my actions, very contradicting
i can't understand myself and i'm not hoping you to understand me
"to you baby
do what you think is right
leave if you have to
stay if you want to
my love will always stay the same"
Remembering friday
It was a hell of my time
well, the least, i ran away from everything
but i missed that one person a lot
KL and Port Dickson, just a breather
and yes, i did my thing
i drove to KL and i got stopped by the police
just coz i was driving at 150km/h
like oh my god, i know! i didn't realise i swear
i had my mind on something else i should say and everyone was asleep
that explains everything huh
i've got pictures! yay right..give me this face (-.-)
pictures say a million so i shan't blurt any further
well, the least, i ran away from everything
but i missed that one person a lot
KL and Port Dickson, just a breather
and yes, i did my thing
i drove to KL and i got stopped by the police
just coz i was driving at 150km/h
like oh my god, i know! i didn't realise i swear
i had my mind on something else i should say and everyone was asleep
that explains everything huh
i've got pictures! yay right..give me this face (-.-)
pictures say a million so i shan't blurt any further
Monday, June 22, 2009
I've had my heart broken and I've broken hearts
It has come to a point where you feel disgusted when boys talk to you
it's where you say "oh fuck, why is he calling?" when a boy calls you
it's a point where you know you can never escape from this mess
it's when you feel calm when you're far away and no boy could reach you
it's when you know you can fall anytime and only you can pick yourself up
it's very heartbreaking when you try so hard to stand up but end up falling
It's tiring to have the ex-boyfriend to have hopes on you
for him to try ultimately hard to win your heart
it's sickening to pretend not to love it but you're left with no choice
it's exhausting to look for answers and how hard you try, it's still a plain one
it has come to a point where you want to run away from him, silently so you won't see him hurt
it's hard to say,
"I love you but all i want from you is to be friends, nothing more coz I really can't see us together anymore. I can't deny I love you still but i swear, i don't want anything from you. A relationship? Never."
it sucks when the feeling of giving up haunts you, but you just can't give him up coz then again, he's been with you for six years; only he knows you inside out. No one can know you more than he does. Not even your current boyfriend. But at the end of the day,
you just know, it's not him you want to be with. Or prolly, you're not ready.
So, that's a problem. You want him by your side coz he knows you so well, you don't have to tell him what's wrong with you but at the same time, tell him, "you're not the one i want to be with."
Now how do you say to him, "I just want us to be friends." It sounds easy, but trust me, it takes a lot of courage and risk. I have yet to do so. :(
it's really hurtful to treat the boyfriend badly when he deserves better
you tried so hard but you end up forcing yourself
you want to be free but you wouldn't want to see him hurt
you'd rather stick with him just as long as he's doing fine
but along the way, you hurt him when you admit that things are different now
you expect him to leave you, but instead he says, "I won't let you go."
there again, you're stuck
still trying, never gives up to make things better once again
but no matter how much you try, the worse it gets
i'm tired boy, i'm really really tired. Can't you see?
And there you have, a friend, where you find happiness
you know all along, it was wrong
but you don't seem to care coz you start loving his presence
you know you can't lose him because that is where you can find your smile
it's sad somehow, that happiness is not there to stay
it has to go one day, not soon, maybe later
and then, all you can say is "thanks for everything.i'll miss you."
There you go, the major problems, never fail to bring you down
now who says it ends here?
how about, you disappointing boys when they ask you out a lot of time and you keep
saying you're busy but the fact is you just can't be bothered
how busy can you get having to reject them everytime?
how about, your guy friends trying so hard to cheer you up when they know you're down
but you're just tired to listen to what they have to say
coz at the end of the day, it is you who makes the difference
but it's pretty sad you still don't know what you want
why must it be related to boys?
i have tonnes of girlfriends, now i don't see the point
i see me risking myself penning down these thoughts
but at least, i've let my heart out
i swear i feel a lot better
god, i beg you to end this misery
I'd rather think of my studies than wasting 3/4 of my life pleasing other people.
Just so you know, true love is not in my dictionary. Period. I'm left hanging, confused.
it's where you say "oh fuck, why is he calling?" when a boy calls you
it's a point where you know you can never escape from this mess
it's when you feel calm when you're far away and no boy could reach you
it's when you know you can fall anytime and only you can pick yourself up
it's very heartbreaking when you try so hard to stand up but end up falling
It's tiring to have the ex-boyfriend to have hopes on you
for him to try ultimately hard to win your heart
it's sickening to pretend not to love it but you're left with no choice
it's exhausting to look for answers and how hard you try, it's still a plain one
it has come to a point where you want to run away from him, silently so you won't see him hurt
it's hard to say,
"I love you but all i want from you is to be friends, nothing more coz I really can't see us together anymore. I can't deny I love you still but i swear, i don't want anything from you. A relationship? Never."
it sucks when the feeling of giving up haunts you, but you just can't give him up coz then again, he's been with you for six years; only he knows you inside out. No one can know you more than he does. Not even your current boyfriend. But at the end of the day,
you just know, it's not him you want to be with. Or prolly, you're not ready.
So, that's a problem. You want him by your side coz he knows you so well, you don't have to tell him what's wrong with you but at the same time, tell him, "you're not the one i want to be with."
Now how do you say to him, "I just want us to be friends." It sounds easy, but trust me, it takes a lot of courage and risk. I have yet to do so. :(
it's really hurtful to treat the boyfriend badly when he deserves better
you tried so hard but you end up forcing yourself
you want to be free but you wouldn't want to see him hurt
you'd rather stick with him just as long as he's doing fine
but along the way, you hurt him when you admit that things are different now
you expect him to leave you, but instead he says, "I won't let you go."
there again, you're stuck
still trying, never gives up to make things better once again
but no matter how much you try, the worse it gets
i'm tired boy, i'm really really tired. Can't you see?
And there you have, a friend, where you find happiness
you know all along, it was wrong
but you don't seem to care coz you start loving his presence
you know you can't lose him because that is where you can find your smile
it's sad somehow, that happiness is not there to stay
it has to go one day, not soon, maybe later
and then, all you can say is "thanks for everything.i'll miss you."
There you go, the major problems, never fail to bring you down
now who says it ends here?
how about, you disappointing boys when they ask you out a lot of time and you keep
saying you're busy but the fact is you just can't be bothered
how busy can you get having to reject them everytime?
how about, your guy friends trying so hard to cheer you up when they know you're down
but you're just tired to listen to what they have to say
coz at the end of the day, it is you who makes the difference
but it's pretty sad you still don't know what you want
why must it be related to boys?
i have tonnes of girlfriends, now i don't see the point
i see me risking myself penning down these thoughts
but at least, i've let my heart out
i swear i feel a lot better
god, i beg you to end this misery
I'd rather think of my studies than wasting 3/4 of my life pleasing other people.
Just so you know, true love is not in my dictionary. Period. I'm left hanging, confused.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
So much for my happy ending
everyone's talking
we gotta stop somewhere
and i think it's time that we leave
baby, i've loved you and i'll always love you
inside I hope you know I'm dying
forever could see us not you and me
and I will always remember you as you are right now to me
and I will always remember now
i know you want me to want you I want to
but i really got to go
"Baby, i'll always love you"
God, why is this so hard?
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Monday, June 15, 2009
He, 'THE EX' says it all
And when 'the ex' says,
"Don't fall for her coz she's a materialistic who only goes for fucking new urban gays"
i can vouch upon the stars
he's lying
Heart throbbing
A bad start for the holidays
or prolly, it was just the norm..Monday blues
'the ex' woke me up with his call and yes, totally fine with that
well, he was being nice and all, it was clear he's trying hard
sometimes, you do not know what agenda someone has when they do certain things,
prolly coz I'D NEVER TRUST ANYONE THAT MUCH
or prolly, i have a mammoth amount of sensitivity
but then again, this world is so vague, we just have to go through it all every single second
'the ex' offered to send me off to nenek's but at the same time humiliating my pride
right, that wasn't funny mr, seriously, i could just shoot you in the head
i don't see the sincere facet in what i see, or rather, you're portraying
tell me if there's a competition or something,
i'd totally withdraw myself on the account of our past
kudos to you boy! you won!
yesterday,
you questioned me what made me fell for you 5 years back
today,
i realized, i never fell for you, everything just fell in place
"Don't fall for her coz she's a materialistic who only goes for fucking new urban gays"
i can vouch upon the stars
he's lying
Heart throbbing
A bad start for the holidays
or prolly, it was just the norm..Monday blues
'the ex' woke me up with his call and yes, totally fine with that
well, he was being nice and all, it was clear he's trying hard
sometimes, you do not know what agenda someone has when they do certain things,
prolly coz I'D NEVER TRUST ANYONE THAT MUCH
or prolly, i have a mammoth amount of sensitivity
but then again, this world is so vague, we just have to go through it all every single second
'the ex' offered to send me off to nenek's but at the same time humiliating my pride
right, that wasn't funny mr, seriously, i could just shoot you in the head
i don't see the sincere facet in what i see, or rather, you're portraying
tell me if there's a competition or something,
i'd totally withdraw myself on the account of our past
kudos to you boy! you won!
yesterday,
you questioned me what made me fell for you 5 years back
today,
i realized, i never fell for you, everything just fell in place
to you,
I really miss you and thurs, please come fast :(
Sunday, June 14, 2009
This weekend, i've been feeling INCREDIBLY HAPPY! Because.....
13th June
Home sweet home babies! Off to Johor! Well, i had the best mix of emotions of course!
A million yayness to going home but boohoo to leaving him
Yes, it was that hard
My mood was dampened with super duper long like a thousand cars ahead of us
And uhhhuhhh, 2 hours in the car is no phun thing missie
Though it was a horrible one, Hann and me toedelly had a great time snapping dumb shots
And yes, Dad let me drove from the restaurant which
So, right, home sweet home finally!
14th June
13th June
Home sweet home babies! Off to Johor! Well, i had the best mix of emotions of course!
A million yayness to going home but boohoo to leaving him
Yes, it was that hard
My mood was dampened with super duper long like a thousand cars ahead of us
And uhhhuhhh, 2 hours in the car is no phun thing missie
Though it was a horrible one, Hann and me toedelly had a great time snapping dumb shots
And yes, Dad let me drove from the restaurant which
was about 5 min drive to our house
Ok, Mum was proud i could see
Sad i couldn't drive on the road coz Baby
didn't let me
"Don't dare drive in Johor ok? You're not an experienced driver. I don't care if you wanna drive in Singapore"
Scary right? so better listen to this boy..haha
Nevermind, more driving days coming
Nevermind, more driving days coming
I shall zoom zooom zoooooom
So, right, home sweet home finally!
14th June
Home in Johor simply means 'sleep the whole day'
and yes, that's exactly what i did
Oh my god, that was the most awesome thing
SLEEPING
I missed out on the usual bowling and swimming
but i don't mind a bit..teeeheee..sleeping's still the best
And "Morning sunshine!" yes, i woke up at 2 in the noon
fresh and all ready to go! uhhhuhhhh ;)
Women in the house were all lazy to cook so
Atok, Bob and me offered to buy lunch
I drove this time! Ok, i kinda screwed up this part
I hit on this superrr longggg pole behind while i was parking!
And i swore my Atok's face was classic! "Muke tensionnn!"
Right, now i doubt he'll pass me the keys when i'm alone
Boooo! There goes my holiday :(
Public transport, here i come!
Friday, June 12, 2009
This morning, i talked to him with a meagre amount of voice left in my throat
then i realised, "wah, i really love him sia"
i live day by day
i don't think of my future, or indeed, i don't intend to
maybe that is why i'm strangled on decisions
i make my own decisions and live by it, whether or not it'll turn good, or sour.
Anyways, today was a series of relief i must say
so i've got my result and awesome, my GPA's gotta bring me somewhere
uhhuhh, uhhuhh
retail test was the shit i tell you, but oh wells, screw that thing man
30%, what harm can it do? right, agree with me people! i'm consoling myself
oh right, how pathetic, such bleeping loser
and of course, the long awaited test
TP..and yes babies, driving license obtained! :)
thanks for the people who came down for me, i mean, like oh my god,
that's like the sweetest thing ever
and of course, the lucky charm ring..i love you
so a movie after a hard and long day sounds good doesn't it?
with the right person of course
it's the hols already! that's sad, really sad
then i realised, "wah, i really love him sia"
i live day by day
i don't think of my future, or indeed, i don't intend to
maybe that is why i'm strangled on decisions
i make my own decisions and live by it, whether or not it'll turn good, or sour.
Anyways, today was a series of relief i must say
so i've got my result and awesome, my GPA's gotta bring me somewhere
uhhuhh, uhhuhh
retail test was the shit i tell you, but oh wells, screw that thing man
30%, what harm can it do? right, agree with me people! i'm consoling myself
oh right, how pathetic, such bleeping loser
and of course, the long awaited test
TP..and yes babies, driving license obtained! :)
thanks for the people who came down for me, i mean, like oh my god,
that's like the sweetest thing ever
and of course, the lucky charm ring..i love you
so a movie after a hard and long day sounds good doesn't it?
with the right person of course
it's the hols already! that's sad, really sad
Sometimes I wonder,
if a person is in a relationship with one partner
and have an open relationship with another is a trend.
everyone around me is doing that
and wow, so i must say it is a trend.
i can't wait for tomorrow!
"Daddy, shut up and let me drive! Because i tell you so!"
Thursday, June 11, 2009
What can get any worse than these?
Firstly, school's a bitch coz you burnt your pocket hailing a cab
Secondly, things just don't go smoothly today
Thirdly, driving's hell because of a cheenapok! How special, you've got an immediate failure!
He fucking crossed the road when he knows you're moving off.."ah pek! go jump down if you wish to die, oh wait, no need for that, i wish you dead!" You should be thankful this isn't TP!
Fourthly, your boyfriend claims to fetch you but instead went running..that's not cool, and right,
trying so hard to be an understanding girlfriend. "I am tired, period."
Fifth, two boys who don't know each other, waiting for you at your doorstep at the same time..
that i must say, is crazy
Sixth, the ex-bf, hoping something from you, but you just can't force yourself to do it,
that is, totally sucky
Seventh, when boys ask you out and you say,
"i don't go out with anyone except my close friends"
and you have them saying to you, "i'm not just anyone and you know it."
oh my fucking god, can you boys just stop it already?
seriously, at least get a line of your own or something
Eighth, when you're looking forward to holidays and your dad just have to spoil it by going overseas with people you don't like..yes, fakers..just awesome dad! Really! Goshh
Ninth, you're trying hard to apologize to the ex-bf coz you've hurt him badly by rejecting him but he ignores you, it hurts so bad
Lastly, when you find yourself lost finding your way out but to no avail
Firstly, school's a bitch coz you burnt your pocket hailing a cab
Secondly, things just don't go smoothly today
Thirdly, driving's hell because of a cheenapok! How special, you've got an immediate failure!
He fucking crossed the road when he knows you're moving off.."ah pek! go jump down if you wish to die, oh wait, no need for that, i wish you dead!" You should be thankful this isn't TP!
Fourthly, your boyfriend claims to fetch you but instead went running..that's not cool, and right,
trying so hard to be an understanding girlfriend. "I am tired, period."
Fifth, two boys who don't know each other, waiting for you at your doorstep at the same time..
that i must say, is crazy
Sixth, the ex-bf, hoping something from you, but you just can't force yourself to do it,
that is, totally sucky
Seventh, when boys ask you out and you say,
"i don't go out with anyone except my close friends"
and you have them saying to you, "i'm not just anyone and you know it."
oh my fucking god, can you boys just stop it already?
seriously, at least get a line of your own or something
Eighth, when you're looking forward to holidays and your dad just have to spoil it by going overseas with people you don't like..yes, fakers..just awesome dad! Really! Goshh
Ninth, you're trying hard to apologize to the ex-bf coz you've hurt him badly by rejecting him but he ignores you, it hurts so bad
Lastly, when you find yourself lost finding your way out but to no avail
i'm tired and only coffee bread and coke interests me now, bye now. Gotta get them!
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
It was at random that we met
A chance that not many get
When I heard the "Uh Hello"
How was I to know!
That a 'mat rep' would turn out to be my special friend
Someone who could be there
Until the end
Our needs are met
Some with regret
Some with hope
Some with pain
But still, the answer is plain
If we hadn't met
On that very day
Things would be different in every way
The emptiness may be filled
A relationship may start to rebuild
A heart may be broken
Or made to mend
All because of that"Random Friendship"
xoxo, your Ms Bimbo
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Sweet nibblets
my Tuesday was a blue one
in fact every day is blue, can i have pink tomorrow?
right, i'm all vexed up as usual
and of course, don't ask
yes, i skip school again today
nah, it's not that bad, only morning class
i realised i was super late to school and i swear i'll feel like a loser if i were to hail a cab
and i did the right choice :) back to sleep, now that was a pretty good decision
not till i ran into my lecturer in the afternoon, ok, how unlucky
she gave me this evil smile and i'm like, right whatever
so, once again, school's oh so awesome
mainly coz of my clique..uhuh uhuh
he's asleep already! boohoo, so bored so bored
right, moodless already
i'm HUNGRY
i'll stop here :)
i shall indulge myself with chocolate cake and a glass of Coke
oh wait, and his chocolates! <3
thanks b
suddenly, i thought of him
i miss bro :(
my Tuesday was a blue one
in fact every day is blue, can i have pink tomorrow?
right, i'm all vexed up as usual
and of course, don't ask
yes, i skip school again today
nah, it's not that bad, only morning class
i realised i was super late to school and i swear i'll feel like a loser if i were to hail a cab
and i did the right choice :) back to sleep, now that was a pretty good decision
not till i ran into my lecturer in the afternoon, ok, how unlucky
she gave me this evil smile and i'm like, right whatever
so, once again, school's oh so awesome
mainly coz of my clique..uhuh uhuh
he's asleep already! boohoo, so bored so bored
right, moodless already
i'm HUNGRY
i'll stop here :)
i shall indulge myself with chocolate cake and a glass of Coke
oh wait, and his chocolates! <3
thanks b
suddenly, i thought of him
i miss bro :(
Monday, June 8, 2009
What's sexy?
I'm a happy girl today coz breakfast was with him
my pockets are emptying but it doesn't matter :)
once again, i've skipped class
that's how much i loathe school, yet love it coz there's him
what's new with school? nothing interesting..so what do you want to know?
I don't want lovers, or anything else
I just want my girls back
I love you girls and i really really miss you
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Ahmed, this is for you, just as you wanted
Ahmed, yes, the terrorist
i know you guys would be "oh, this is a waste of time reading"
but at least, give him at least a few minutes of your time
he'll appreciate it
you'll get a wink wink ;) from him if you read this till the end
what can i say about him?
he sucks..yea..like a lot..really
so he's with me since childcare, so that'd be 15 years till now?
amazing i know
he still sucks no matter what and i'll always hate him, that's for sure
something happened when we're in sec 2 and that, made me hate him more
so, in conclusion, ahmed, i hate you
i know i've been mean to you all this while but then again,
since when am i an angel?
ahmed, i hope you're happy with my post, wink wink ;)
Ahmed, yes, the terrorist
i know you guys would be "oh, this is a waste of time reading"
but at least, give him at least a few minutes of your time
he'll appreciate it
you'll get a wink wink ;) from him if you read this till the end
what can i say about him?
he sucks..yea..like a lot..really
so he's with me since childcare, so that'd be 15 years till now?
amazing i know
he still sucks no matter what and i'll always hate him, that's for sure
something happened when we're in sec 2 and that, made me hate him more
so, in conclusion, ahmed, i hate you
i know i've been mean to you all this while but then again,
since when am i an angel?
ahmed, i hope you're happy with my post, wink wink ;)
And i will remember what i told myself a few nights ago
i won't shed a tear
then again, even babies cry when they're in pain
us? we're just good at hiding and running away
i'm tired, really
and with pain, i know i'm still alive
something happened between me and A today
you know, somehow,
you really get annoyed coz you know there's nothing going on between you and him?
and like, you've confessed to someone else, he got to know
and he got all disappointed? i mean, what the fuck..
i thought we are friends boy, i've got no such intentions man seriously
clear cut, me, you...just friends..
damn, i didn't know falling in love is easy for you boys
So, Mama was saying about how i should leave K and all
it's hard mama, you don't understand
talking to you, pointless
today was sucky, i've shed tears talking to Mama about K
i didn't know crying was this easy
and of course, my sweet sister Hann, never fails to cheer me up
the annoying brat whom i still love
argh, hate troubled days
and my zonked out complexion's not helping me much!
i won't shed a tear
then again, even babies cry when they're in pain
us? we're just good at hiding and running away
i'm tired, really
and with pain, i know i'm still alive
something happened between me and A today
you know, somehow,
you really get annoyed coz you know there's nothing going on between you and him?
and like, you've confessed to someone else, he got to know
and he got all disappointed? i mean, what the fuck..
i thought we are friends boy, i've got no such intentions man seriously
clear cut, me, you...just friends..
damn, i didn't know falling in love is easy for you boys
So, Mama was saying about how i should leave K and all
it's hard mama, you don't understand
talking to you, pointless
today was sucky, i've shed tears talking to Mama about K
i didn't know crying was this easy
and of course, my sweet sister Hann, never fails to cheer me up
the annoying brat whom i still love
argh, hate troubled days
and my zonked out complexion's not helping me much!
Years ago, when i learnt my aunt was diagnosed with cancer
i felt as though my heart was stabbed 10 times
with prolly 15 seconds interval
today, when i learnt you teared for me
i felt the same
I don't have the ability to bear this guilt
the battle has just begun
i'm staying strong, or perhaps i assume i am
doubts about you, me and our somber future haunt me
boy, i have to say, i admit defeat
i won your heart, i lost the war
" Did it ever occur to you that you'reso caught up in trying to make the right choice,
that you’ve never stopped to consider the possibility that there may not be a right
choice, or a wrong choice, just a bunch of choices?"
I'm tired, tired of thinking
When you're too in love to let it go, that's when it's the hardest
xoxo, nadz
It's weekends and have i mentioned i hate weekends?
i can't see him and i'm bored to my bones!
i miss him soooooo
i've got a secret
I am very hungry and hungry man always get angry
so, i'm very angry
"To you,
I just want you close where we can stay forever
You can be sure that this will get better
People keep talking and yes, they can say what they like
We can't get away from what i feel for you
I don't worry cause everything's going to be alright"
Sometimes,
one moment of blunder,
one moment of happiness,
one moment of temporary high,
can put your conscience to forever hell.
now fly away butterfly
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