I'm the happiest girl alive. As of right now.

Life is kind. Thank you Nadiy and Ash. I love you both, my amazing friends.

Done with dramas.

I'm done pleasing boys at the same time. Trying to find excuses to one to please the other. My emotions are so drained right now. Let me make myself clear, I'm only in love with one. As for you, you're my history, my ex. So, quit raking up the past. Having the best of both worlds is pretty exhausting. I surrender. I'll keep Ash but I'll let go of you H.

My list of farks.FARKING ANNOYING PEOPLE.

Just today itself, I've got calls and messages from whom I call, friends whom I've not been contacting for ages. Reasons they call that absolutely spoilt my farking day.

And they have their ways on starting a conversation, like.. "Hi babe, how have you been doing? I hope you're good."

And those farking reasons when I said, "What is it? Go straight to the point."

1) Do you have cash to spare? I'm in need of cash now. (you're a farking boy mind you.)

2) Heard you're single now, are you fine? Just so you know, I'm here for you. (seriously, what the fark.)

3) I'm running a business and I'm looking for a partner. And I think you're the right one. (fark off. And you can't farking tell me the benefits of joining the business.)

4) I miss you so much. *Awkward silence* Ummm..can you do me a favour? (yeah, sure. Like hanging up on you? My pleasure.)

5) Eh, did I just saw you at Ferragamo? You're working there?! Hmm. Not bad. Can get discount? (fark off luh.)

KNNLJCB.

And lastly, FACEBOOK'S ACTING LIKE A FARKING BITCH NOW. That kinda sums up my day. FARK.

I say, Boys come and go.

"No baby, I'm different. I stay, they leave." -Ash.

Oh honey, that's what they say.

That one sweet in my heart.

I love you brother and not a single soul can change that fact.

xoxo, your sister.

At times, I'm a loser.

I just texted the ex-bf. What the fuck was I thinking?

Old boys leave, new boys come. I don't want a relationship, but just assume I'm attached. Because, for now, I like only one. Don't make me change my heart.

p.s. Finally a day with A.N. tomorrow.

It'd be nice if I don't have work on every of my Saturdays.

"Baby, I don't want to promise you any single thing. All you gotta do, is just have faith in my future." - Ash.

The fact that you never put me in the picture just yet, I'm just liking the way it is.

It'd be nice if I don't have work on every of my Saturdays.

'Brunch' on my bed. Toasted bread with hot milo. A nice start to my Saturday. Counting the hours to meeting .................

Spell awesome. :) :) NTU.

Dear Miss Nadzirah

I refer to your application. I am pleased to inform you that you have been shortlisted for an interview.

p.s. I seriously don't know which university to go to. Am confused :(

I look into your eyes, I want to get to know you.

Oh, he treats me with respect, he says he loves me all the time.
He calls me fifteen times a day, he likes to make sure that I'm fine.
You know I've never met a man who's made me feel quite so secure.
He's not like all them other boys, they're all so dumb and immature.

-Lilly Allen

Wow.

Tonight was great, wasn’t it? It brought me back to 2009, when I first fell for that smile. Haha. Thanks to facebook.

Not yet. Not soon.

"I think you shouldn't delay any further. Just get attached already. You guys are perfect."

Econs.

On demand with little supply. - My favourite boy.

It felt so real.

My Saturday was kinda amazing. In a different way from how things are naturally amazing with Ash, or with any of my closer than close friends. Because tonight I didn’t expect to have as much fun as I did. The feeling of working for 10 days straight and finally an off day and on a Saturday at that, it was outrageously awesome.

On a side note, I love work. For real. Those colleagues made my days in Ferragamo.

p.s. Boys who smoke, they are the sex.

I'm not good at tolerating.

Seriously, I can't imagine being your girlfriend. You're one control freak.

Today, I made my family proud.

Dear Ms Nadzirah Mohd Zulkiflee,

We are pleased to inform you that we are happy to offer you an unconditional offer of a place to enter Year 3 in BA(Hons) in Retail Marketing in September 2010.

And how I crave for that thing.

I haven't had my own pack since forever. I didn't go for smoke breaks during work though my colleagues kept urging me to tag along. It's been so long and I'm seriously craving for a fag. Just one and I'll be fine. Now even my favourite boy don't smoke around me anymore. Tsk.

I have a confession. I'm really in love. In love with my job. My feet is dying on me, but really with the awesome people, that kinda complete my days.

You gotta play politics.

The bitch at my work place is no longer a bitch. All in all, working in Ferragamo, is awesome.

Double awesome.

Guaranteed, workaholic. 10 days straight. Beat me. Because they say, in a boutique, you're paid to waste time.

Peace maker.

I don't have issues with your ex. So, don't have issues with mine.

I thank you.

Loving you. Ballboy.

My other half.

And of course, the years we've been counting, I treasure. I really love you. Bestfriends are not in my dictionary now but you are, definitely, someone I'd never stop loving. I wouldn't want to sound cheesy but really, I'd never want to lose you. I love you Amalina.

To the other half, or whoever you are, good luck in life.

Oh what the bleagh.

She's human after all.

Unholy confessions.

Because friends come and go. So why bother having bestfriends? Friendships are more awesome without titles.

Slow down a little bit yea?

"Nad, if we get together, I don't want to control you. I don't mind you going out with boys. You know I won't get jealous but I need to know that you're going to be safe with whoever you're out with. I trust you but not the boys."

Still, do you think we should risk our 7 years of friendship? I am scared. Period.

I'm not over you, but at least I'm moving on.

"It’s hard to get over people, and I mean really get over them. You can start having feelings for some other person, but it doesn’t mean you’re over them. It just means you’re moving on."-Nia

I'm not over you J, but at least I'm moving on.

Is make up magic?

Boss : You are required to put on make up in Ferragamo.

Me : Ohhh. Right.

Seriously, I feel miserable. I bet my complexion will get worse now that I have to put on make up every day. Fark.