Years ago, when i learnt my aunt was diagnosed with cancer

i felt as though my heart was stabbed 10 times

with prolly 15 seconds interval

today, when i learnt you teared for me

i felt the same

I don't have the ability to bear this guilt

the battle has just begun

i'm staying strong, or perhaps i assume i am

doubts about you, me and our somber future haunt me

boy, i have to say, i admit defeat

i won your heart, i lost the war

" Did it ever occur to you that you'reso caught up in trying to make the right choice,

that you’ve never stopped to consider the possibility that there may not be a right

choice, or a wrong choice, just a bunch of choices?"

I'm tired, tired of thinking

When you're too in love to let it go, that's when it's the hardest

xoxo, nadz